I took a survey earlier to see which presidential canidate's view I matched up the most with. I got that Ron Paul guy. You know, the "who is ron paul? 2008" dude. Yeah, anyway from what I've read, he's like farthest from my views. I took a similar survey a few weeks back and I got a tie 69% for both Obama and Edwards. I've been pulling for Edwards, but I also like Obama. But what does this matter to me? I'm 16; I can't vote, right? Well, I figure that if I keep up with this election...in four years by the time the next one rolls around, I will know enough about the current president that I can decide whether I like him or his opponents more. I am also hoping that maybe Al Gore will come to his senses and run in 2012 (is that the year?). I like most of his views. I really, really like John Edwards, though. And even though I'm pretty sure that he won't get the democratic nomination, I sure want him to. If Obama get the nomination, I'd be fine with it, but if Clinton gets it, I sure hope my humanities teacher is right in saying that Mike Huckabee would make a great president. Plus, he's backed by Chuck Norris. "chuck norris once had a heart attack...his heart lost." ahahaha.

If anybody had any idea how much these stupid things meant to me,
they would never say no.
They are the only things that keep me going.
The only things that I have to look forward to.
Life would suck with out them.

back to the street

I appreciate life so much right now.
All I want to do is listen to music, look at art, and create.
Everything is amazing.

CONFIRMED.
april 15-19
Every State That Touches The Gulf of Mexico Except Tennessee Tour...

So today in praise team class, Milbourne Nobes was sort of joking around about going on a tour.
Like just a small tour arund Texas.
Then everybody got really excited and started throwing out ideas.
We actually started talking about seriously doing it and he is going to talk to Monty Fonty about it.
I'm so stoked.
4 girls, 7 guys, jared, and nobes...
how much better could it really get?
haha!

sleeping with GIANTS

it's crazy to me that the NFC championships are this sunday.
it seems like a week ago that the saints were facing off with the bears in chicago for the NFC title.
unfortunately we lost, but it was still an amazing ride for the saints.
i am rooting for the Giants this time around.
they are just an all-american team, in my opinion.
i kind of like the packers, but i think its just because brett farve is like 100 years old and he's still not dead.

oh and an interesting fact that i learned today...
well two facts:
1) apparently walt whitman was gay
2) some self-proclaimed "rocker dudes" on american idol can wear bermuda shorts and still be "hardcore"
...yeah that's what he said. ha!

achooo

i have to journals/blogs/web log things.
i use both of them.
this one is like my release one; where i can complain and create without n00bs lurking.
i mean, i'm sure people could lurk and read because its not like there's a f-lock on this, but not as many people know about this blog than they do about the other one because i broadcast that one on my myspaz.
the other one is like my pop culture one.
i write about what i did that day and what i'm going to do later.
i'm not sure why i am posting this useless information on here,
but if you do by some strange chance read this and have a buzznet...add me.

sarah's buzznet

song i cannot stop listening to

The Cure For Pain by Jon Forman
ahh its so good. I listen to it over and over again just because if i don't, it sticks in my head anyway.

download it

and i'm not pirateing. i downloaded it free off of myspace (it was the featured "free mp3 of the day") and i think other's should have the chance to get it if they don't have it. plus, no one reads this. asdfghjkl!

i wish that you hadn't changed. i used to be able to talk to you whenever i wanted or needed to; even after you'd become "famous." now, when i honestly need you the most, you won't talk. i need to talk to you more than anyone because you know exactly what i'm going through, yet you are too tied up playing your silly games to talk to the people who have been with you since the very beginning and need you the most. 
oh, and btw, your picture comment means nothing. people see it and freak out because you are somewhat famous, and i'll admit i freaked out too, but now it means shit. simply because of who you have become. you have become the kind of person you vowed to never become. egotistical, denying asshole. and honestly, i will probably delete this if you do find it convenient to talk to me because i am simply a fan. i am not really a normal person compared to your standings. and that is my mindset.

i wish my dad...

...could have seen the LSU game tonight.
He would have been so proud of his team.

I miss you.

voodoo fest - day 2

October 27, 2007
i saw the smashing pumpkins!
amazing!!
but i was at the front of the crowd and people started moshing, which you really can't do to the smashing pumpkins especially if it's a slow song.
so it ended up just being haphazardous pushing.
then i fell on the ground and some stoner guy helped me up.
then i felt something in my leg pop and emily started hypervenelating.
so she tried to get out of the crowd and i followed her.
then aj like grabbed my hand and followed me.
so the security guards lifted emily over the barricades and i was about to go over and this dude like grabbed my leg and i'm not sure if he was trying to pull me back in or if he was trying to hold on to me so he wouldn't fall, but either way it hurt my leg even more.
so i was over the barricade pretty much and i realized that my pants were like down to my knees and aj was right behind me, so i quickly pulled them up.
then we walked to the side between the stage and the barricades, and emily and aj went to get something to drink.
i was there all alone and i started to cry.
i was very overwhelmed because i was seeing one of my favorite bands in the whole world, i couldn't really see them to great anymore, they were playing 'Tonight, Tonight,' and my leg really hurt.
so i just stood there for about 15 minutes not knowing where emily and aj went, not knowing if zander and joanna were dead or not, and not knowing where my mom was.
then i walked over to the vitamin water booth and some drunk girl and this gay guy(he was so gay. he started crying when she kicked him in the balls...yes i saw this happen) asked me for rolls and this other girl goes "where the hell is my pot!"
it was really funny.
i finally saw my mom and it was seriously like the heavens opened up. i have never been so happy to see someone in my life.
then we saw emily and aj and i guess that was a relief...seeing emily was at least.
then we saw NEIL!!!!
he was so stoned but it was so great to see him :]
after that I like walked away to watching some more of the pumpkins and after about 20 minutes i saw joanna and zander.
i thought that i was dreaming at first. it was surreal.
so we walked to the oxygen bar and then we left.

voodoo fest - day 3 (young wild things)

October 28, 2007
so...
cute is what we aim for cancelled because shaant was sick.
poor baby haha.
plain white t's was opening and they started about 20 minutes early since ciwwaf was supposed to open, but yeah.
pwt was amazing!! like i don't even listen to them much and i was freaking out.
they were soooo good.
next, red jumpsuit was playing on the other stage, but i don't care much of them, so i stayed at the main stage and moved up as people left for rja.
i wanted a good spot for gym class heroes...which i got.
but there was this douche bag 40 year old dude standing right in front of me and i asked him if there was any way that i could possibly stand in front of him for the next band because they are one of my favorites and he was majorly taller than me, and he looked at me and goes "no." and turned back around. i was about to kill him.
but anyway, i saw whit setting guitars up, so i screamed his name and he saw me, smiled, and waved. it made me happy :)
red jumpsuit was FINALLY over and gym class came on, and travis had this strage mask on.
they were so amazing!
ERIC CUT HIS HAIR!! HE SHAVED HIS HEAD! AHH!
then during The Queen & I, whit came out and played the acoustic guitar.
he is amazing. haha.
their set seemed so short. when they were over i was really sad.
when they were breaking down, i saw eric doing something and i screamed his name really loud and he looked and saw me and waved. once again, i was really happy.
i can't remember who was playing on the yellow stage between gym class and fall out boy, but i didn't go see them. i stayed put to get in the front for fob.
once the other band (help me with this name people!) was over, fall out boy was about to come on, but stevie g from b97 came out to talk for a minute.
finally fall out boy was on!! they were soooo amazing!
like amazing isn't even the right word to describe it. there really isn't a word.
but so the show was going on as usual, then pete decides to climb this HUGE amp (well, amps piled on top of each other) and then he jumps dow.
bad move.
they finish the song and he goes 'well i think i broke my ankle.' but he said this in a very joking tone...so all was well.
then this girl goes "patrick i love you!" and i said some variation of "nuhh-uh girlfran, he's mine." and she like flipped out. she started yelling at me. then when the songs started again, she started shoving me. i didn't do anything to her!
so i got fed up and i pushed her really hard and then elbowed her in the back really really hard...i hope she has a bruise...what?? haha.
the moshingishness stuff continued....do new orleanian people not know how to mosh?...and i kept shoving her because she was being a biyyatch...hahahah.
so they were playing the last song (saturday? thnks fr the mmrs? can't remember...) and pete got in the middle of the audience as usual. this suprised most people, but not me. he did it in chicago, so i knew it was coming :)
once they were done i was really bummed.
we made our way out of the crowd to go to merch and then aj called emily and he put her on the phone with TRAVIS FROM GCH! ah! then i called ainsley and instead of her answering the phone it was some dude and i was like "um who is this?" and he goes "tom." and here's how the reast of this convo went...
me: "tom who?"
don(dude on phone): "tom conrad."
me: "really?"
don (now tom): "mhmm"
me: "how are you?"
tom: "i'm pretty good. just enjoying the festival."
me: "that's good. me too."
tom: "i just wanted to apologize for the mix up. i'm so sorry that it happened."
me: "oh, that's totally okay. i understand when you are doing things on your own that it can get really hectic....tom cuts me off."
tom: "well listen, i have to go get some drinks for friends, but i really want to meet up with you."
me: "ok, that sounds good."
tom: "bye. it was great talking to you."
me: "you too. bye."
tom: "see you later."
**click**
ahhh!! it was so amazing!!
if you don't know who tom conrad is, he used to play guitar in The Academy Is..., and now he is a professional photographer.
the mix up was that i ordered a print, "little windows," from him and he accidentally sent me "hotels" and "caged." but talking to him was pretty amazing.
then joanna and i went to get vitamin water because that was the only thing they had to drink there other than SoCo Lime and Red Bull with vodka.
once i got back to the merch booth where everyone else was, ainsley called me and goes "come to the left side of the main stage!" and i was like "why?" and she goes "tom is over here, he really wants to meet you, but he has to leave! RUN!"
so i ran the fastest i ever have in my whole life and once i got there i wasn't even winded because of all the adreneline(sp?)...haha.
so as soon as i got there, tom gives me this HUGE hug and we talk for a little while and then he tells me that he has a SoCo Lime and we talk for a little longer, then he tells me that he has to go and he gives me another HUGE hug and ainsley and i leave.
so we get back to my mom and we had to leave, so i tell ainsley bye and we walked to the car.
once we get there, aj calls us and tells us to come to the house of shock because he got us passes to go through with fall out boy!!! yayayay!!!
so we get there and we wait for about 20 minutes and we go in and wait for about 15 more minutes...my feet hurt because of my injury(haha) on saturday, but i didn't care because i was going to get to hang out with my favorite band in the whole wide world!!
fall out boy finally got there, but patrick wasn't with them because he was throwing up (yuckk). i was really sad because patrick is amazing (i'm not going to say favorite because i don't choose favs.). but needless to say, i was very upset :(
i saw andy and joe walk up and we exchanged greetings then i saw pete and HE WAS ON CRUTCHES!! and he had a brace on his ankle. he really hurt it when he jumped off the amps.
ASHLEE SIMPSON WAS WITH HIM!! ahhh!! she is one of my idols!
TOM CONRAD WAS THERE TOO!!!!!! and he said hi to me :)
it was so cool. joanna, zander, emily, and i got a picture with andy, joe, and pete, then we all got it line. on my right side in line, i was standing next to zander, and ashlee and pete were on my left side! like right next to me!!!
ashlee and i talked for a little while. she is so sweet! and pete and i talked for like 10 seconds and then marcus the security guard needed to talk to him :(
oh well, ashlee and i kept talking.
then this really scary satanic guy went up on the little platform and said all these things like "use the power satan has given you to defeat christ." it sort of upset me. when he said that i looked at pete and ashlee(her dad was a pastor if you didn't know) and they both looked disgusted. their reaction made me happy (hopefully you know what i mean by that).
after all the gruesomeness, we got to go in. i was standing right behind pete, ashlee, and tom. and i could see andy and joe :]
i saw andy walk through this doorway and cringe and it made me wonder and then when i walked through and saw what it was (a pig that was cut open on a table), i like made a grossed out noise and andy turned around and gave me this 'i know how you feel' sort of look. it was sweet.
after we finally got out of satan's house, fob signed these posters that were given to us, and we got pictures with pete. i didn't get one with joe or andy because they went to the van and so did ashlee. that bummed me out. i really wanted pictures with all of them. but it was ok.
is really was the best night of my life!!!

happy birthdayyyy

to me!

tonight tonight

The in-laws are in town...
or so my mother says.
Its so awkward with my ATL grandparents here.
I understand that they are terribly distraught that their son just died,
but they don't have to a) sit and stare, b) talk about God every other thing they say, or c) talk about how great of a man my father was.
ATL grandmother is on Xanax, so she is acting so strange.
The first visitation service is tonight.
I get to stand up by my father's open casket for nearly 3 hours while people come and tell me how sorry they are.
Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the thought, but I feel like half of it is out of pity and it makes me feel bad for the people who are truly sincere.
Oh, and when refering to the casket earlier, ATL grandfather said "coffin."
How terribly morbid is that?