no one reads this

But I guess if you do, you will know.
My father passed away yesterday.
I haven't really told anybody except for 2 of my closest friends, my family, and one of my other friends found out through her grandfather who is the fire chief in our city.
My mom, sister, and friend Ainsley are in Chicago right now and we found out yesterday.
We are trying to deal and just go on normally because that is all we really can do at this point.
I really wanted to wait until we got home from Chicago tomorrow to say anything, but I needed an outlet.
If you are reading this, please don't spread it around because I would like to try to dispel any rumors that have or will start, which I know they inevitably will.
We wanted to leave yesterday, but we couldn't.
My mom cannot fly because she gets anxiety attacks on planes,
so we had to take a train, but the first one we could get departs tonight.
I will be home tomorrow and I have to find a way to tell certain people that I really wanted to tell before anyone, but it was impossible at the time.
I know that there was a reason for it happening.
Earlier this year, my friend Caleb said something that has stuck with me and it is really helping me now.
He said that God has a reason for everything, and even if we don't know what that reason is, it wasn't to hurt us. God is a loving god and he would never do anything to intentionally hurt anyone.
I know that God had a reason for taking my father away from me, and all I can do now is figure out what it is.
I feel at ease right now with everything because I know that everything will ultimately be okay.